Somewhere with You

I love this song. The first time I heard this song I thought of your face. It sums up how I feel.


Somewhere with You by Kenny Chesney


If you're going out with someone new
I'm going out with someone too
I won't feel sorry for me, I'm getting drunk
But I'd much rather be somewhere with you

Laughing loud on a carnival ride, yeah
Driving around on a Saturday night
You made fun of me for singing my song
Got a hotel room just to turn you on

You said pick me up at three a.m.
You're fighting with your mom again
And I'd go, I'd go, I'd go somewhere with you

I won't sit outside your house
And wait for the lights to go out
Call up an ex to rescue me, climb in their bed
When I'd much rather sleep somewhere with you

Like we did on the beach last summer
When the rain came down and we took cover
Down in your car, out by the pier
You laid me down, whispered in my ear

I hate my life, hold on to me
Ah, if you ever decide to leave
Then I'll go, I'll go, I'll go

I can go out every night of the week
Can go home with anybody I meet
But it's just a temporary high 'cause when I close my eyes
I'm somewhere with you, somewhere with you

If you see me out on the town
And it looks like I'm burning it down
You won't ask and I won't say
But in my heart I'm always somewhere with you

Laughing loud on a carnival ride, yeah
Driving around on a Saturday night
You made fun of me for singing my song
Got a hotel room just to turn you on

You said pick me up at three a.m.
You're fighting with your mom again
And I'd go, I'd go, I'd go

I can go out every night of the week
Can go home with anybody I meet
But it's just a temporary high 'cause when I close my eyes
I'm somewhere with you, somewhere with you

Somewhere with you
I'm somewhere with you
I'm somewhere with you
Somewhere with you
Somewhere with you

The Truth...

The truth is something that some people are not prepared to face. Some people like to live in a world where they think that everything is OK and that they are this perfect parent that believes they have a right to be called a mom or a dad not realizing that they are nothing of the sort! It is a privilege being a parent! Just because you supplied some of the genetics doesn't give you the right to say you are a parent. You have to earn it! You have to show your child that you love them, you have to be there for your child everyday! You have to know your child to be a parent! A child's hero isn't the parent that is never there for them, it's the one that's providing for them, the one that's taking care of them everyday!

I am my child's best friend. I am the one that she always wants to be attached to. I'm the one that is there for her when she wakes up from a bad dream. I'm the name she calls out when she's hurt, wants a hug and kiss, or just wants to be held! I am her hero because I am the one that acts like super mom day in and day out, not because I have to but because I want to, because it makes my life more enjoyable with her in it!

I am so tired of not just men but women thinking they are a parent just because they gave some DNA to a child. No, a parent is the one that they say good night to every night, a parent is the one that puts the bandage on a boo-boo, a parent is the one that holds them when they just want to be loved, a parent is the one that made their giant 6th birthday cupcake, a parent is the one that has made the sacrifices to make their child's life the best thing in this world! A parent is the one that goes to parent-teacher conferences, a parent is the one taking them to their soccer, gymnastics, little league, dance, football games, practices and competitions. A parent is the one that helps them with their homework and makes sure that it is done every night before bed. A parent is the person they see all the time and know them as mom and dad. Not the person that doesn't call, talk, or see their child grow from day to day. The truth is from the start you never wanted to be a parent. Why keep acting as though you are or want to be?

You were never meant to be a parent because you never wanted to be one. Don't think that you're a parent because you gave some genetics to make a child. All you really are is a donor and nothing more. Unless you truly try to be in your child's life you have no title, you are no parent.

The good... the bad?!

My little family consists of two people, my daughter and me. I am given the most amazing gift of being the mother to such an amazing kid. I go to sleep everyday knowing how lucky I am to be able to wake up and go to sleep every night near my little girl. Emily is my world. She is every meaning to the word LIFE. She is everything I love. These last few days, well to be honest weeks, I have been really emotional. Maybe it is because I can tell in my daughter's eyes and face when she knows that something is bothering me. Maybe it is because I wish her father would step it up and be the father I know that he can be.

After this last week with the tragic death of Andy Irons and leaving behind his pregnant wife. He has unwillingly left behind his family, the soon-to-be new addition to his family, his unborn son. Andy died before he could/would ever meet his child. Andy will never be able to hug, kiss, cuddle, love, hold, or lay eyes on his child. It seriously breaks my heart knowing that a man that wanted to have a child won't ever see his baby and that his child can never meet his father. Makes me think of all the dads that are out there that would give anything for their child then makes me think of all the dads out there that don't know how to give their child the time of day.

How is it some fathers would give anything and everything for their kid and others don't care even about anyone other than themselves?! How is it some men just naturally do and want to be great and others don't?! I know I am anything but perfect but I know that my child is everything! I know that all her needs come before mine. I know that everything I do is for her. I know that the reason why I go to work and wake up everyday to try to do better is because of her. I know that any money I make she's the one that it goes to first for whatever she needs/wants or that I believe that she deserves. I want to be sure she has everything she has ever wanted in this world. So why is it that some fathers can't feel that same thing automatically for their child?! Why is it some it naturally comes to them the minute they lay eyes on their child and even before that moment, but others have to be taught, made, or never love their child?!

I don't understand it. Maybe I never will. Maybe in this life we aren't meant to know everything maybe it's all supposed to a mystery. Who knows only life will tell...